So I'm extremely paranoid about some things, yet my mom thinks I'm lying and refuses to take me to a professional for such a 'silly thing'. So, I need your help guys. I want you to help me try and identify what's causing my paranoia.

Main Info

I've been paranoid since I was about...11 or 12. Its become worse over the years, to the point I've searched my house for cameras and such. I have trouble doing things such as going to the bathroom, bathing, and getting dressed out of fear that someone is watching me and laughing at me. As odd as this sounds, sometimes as soon as I get in the shower I crouch down and cover myself and begin to cry, repeating things like "Fuck off" or "go away".

I block cameras. I put tape on my laptops webcam to blur it up so its unclear so anyone hacking it couldn't see me (Its in use if the light is on, and it never is unless I use it but it still scares me). I always face my digital camera away from me and for more safety I put something over it, such as a towel.

In public, I often think people are talking or laughing about me in some kind of manner. I think a lot of people are against me. In stores, if someone is walking behind me I turn into another isle (even if its not where I want to go) because I think they're following me. That, or I'll speed up my pace to get away. The same thing in school, basically.

I've tried to get rid of it multiple times. Every time I succeed just a little bit, it comes back even worse. It makes me cry sometimes and I'm afraid to be in my own goddamn house most of the time..

Other

I also have Social Anxiety Disorder and have had depression.

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So uh yeah. Help?

It's another case of mind over matter.

You've got to convince yourself these fears aren't real and have no real basis, and just overcome them. There's not much else you can do. You're the one in control, so take control. Sorry if that doesn't help much :/